my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Monday, November 21, 2005
feeling accomplished! i've completed everything that i set out to do so yipeee for me! ran for about half an hour i think. yeah yeah i know it's not much, but it's my first day of exercise after a long period of dormancy :D then i didnt get to catch up on my sleep so that's the only thing i didnt do. weird huh. met mommy for lunch at that jap place. ate kwite a lot but most of it was like soba sauce hurhur. i had that cold somen + udon + soba thingy which came in little pots. how quaint. it relly aint a lot. so ya mommy ordered MORE. nevermind i aint eating anything for the rest of today so that makes one meal today! YAY today's going fantastically well! HURHUR you could make it better for me by telling me you're getting me that gorgeous baby for christmas/my birthday/or jes because ur too rich and too nice :D sigh im so silly.
im going to iron clothes later! it really is kinda therapeutic you know. try it all you undomesticated people HMPH.
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